Flashbacks. I’m sick to my stomach.

Posted on Sunday, August 17 2014, 2 months ago
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#flashbacks#Tw: rape#Tw: abuse

Don’t ever let your guarded down because just when you begin to fool yourself in to thinking everything will be okay and you let your guard down you are just taken for an idiot so if you are defensive stick with what you know. I won’t make that mistake again. 

Posted on Sunday, July 27 2014, 2 months ago
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Listening to a band play ‘Smells Like Teen Spirit’ when they don’t know the lyrics. 


Posted on Saturday, July 05 2014, 3 months ago
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#nirvana#don't#just don't#LEARN THE GODDAMN LYRICS#They really aren't that difficult#smells like teen spirit#it's like their most popular song#everyone knows the lyrics

Sitting there tonight watching holby city with my parents and one of the characters is in the linen closet stripped down to her bra and pants. I am sitting there with a poker face like ‘oh no, i don’t find this a complete turn on. I don’t have a massive crush on this actress.’ 

Then skip ahead to the next scene my dad is complaining about something or other and says: ‘I want to go back that Zosia in the closet. Are we not going to see that again?’

And i’m just in my head thinking ‘so would I.’ 

Posted on Monday, June 30 2014, 3 months ago
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#closet lesbian#femme#holby city

What kind of lesbian are YOU?

Posted on Sunday, June 29 2014, 3 months ago
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I’ve been single for quite a while now and I’ve been fooling myself thinking that I was happy being alone buy I am feeling really lonely at the moment.
I’m really missing those cute little things in a relationship like feeling like the luckiest girl in the word snuggling up to my beautiful girlfriend whilst we just lay there watching episode upon episode of whatever together.
Or even just laying in bed talking for hours about anything and everything.

Or those little stolen moments when you are just watching her and she doesn’t notice and you are just in awe.

I miss that. Nobody truly wants to be alone.

Posted on Saturday, June 28 2014, 3 months ago
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So I was thinking the other day about having children and the whole mechanics (for lack of a better word) of it.

Adoption has always been something that I have wanted to do, without a doubt but II would love a child that was genetically my own. Having said that I have terrible genes with my Ehlers Danlos Syndrome and various mental health conditions that makes realise just how impossible this would be. There is no way that I would wish to inflict these conditions on my children. I couldn’t watch my child in constant pain for one reason or another. I know there is that small chance of them not inheriting the conditions but I just don’t want to take that chance.

There is also the issue of carrying a child. I’d love to do that too but there is also the various issues that come with that and having EDS. I also fear that my anorexia would bite me in the ass with that too. 

Children is one of my non-negotiables. I want them and there is no changing that and this broke up the relationship with my last girlfriend as she plainly (and quite harshly) stated that she would not carry the child and would not consider adoption. It makes me wonder if I am selfish in the endeavour of having a child but it breaks my heart that I cannot have a child that is genetically my own.

Anyone else battled with this?

Posted on Saturday, June 28 2014, 3 months ago
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#ehlers danlos syndrome#genetics


I like drinking tea alone, and reading alone.

I like riding the bus alone, and walking home alone.

It gives me time to think, and set my mind free.

I like eating alone, and listening to music alone.

But when I see a mother with her child;

A girl with her lover;

Or a friend laughing with their best friend;

I realize that even though I like being alone

I don’t fancy being lonely.

after 3+ years on tumblr this is still the most relevant accurate thing i’ve ever seen
Posted on Thursday, June 26 2014, 3 months ago
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Posted on Friday, June 20 2014, 4 months ago
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#griffon ramsey#love her
Posted on Wednesday, June 18 2014, 4 months ago
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#oitnb#orange is the new black#nsfw